Baptism (1)

This Friday, I'm getting baptised.

When I submitted my form and since then, waited for this day, I found myself getting nervous during this period. I couldn't explain why coz I've been planning for this for 8 & a half years, so why this anxiety? Cold feet?...of course not!

I guess that when I submitted the form, I knew that there's no turning back. Not that I'm afraid I would regret (another "of course not") since I've actually gone through 8.5 yrs of waiting, pondering & fighting for it, proving that this decision of mine is not a rash thing or influenced by others (contrary to my parents' belief).

Maybe as my cell leader said, it's like I'm a "bride" meeting my "bridegroom" (this is a common reference used in the Christian faith). After all, it is making an eternal commitment, like a marriage to Christ. As I reflected more, I realised the nervousness is actually due to me taking the step of faith by making this commitment to GOD because like I said, there's no turning back. What would be in store as I now "officially" become part of the family of Christ? Also, this step of faith is like breaking free from "chains" that were previously holding me back, regardless of what would happen because I am obeying GOD's command; the sudden surge of freedom. It's like an escape and I guess when you first break free, there's always some anxiety, like when a caged bird is suddenly presented with an open door to be free. Mine's slightly different as I'm "forcing" the door open.