Letting Go

I realised that when it comes to letting go (with the help of God), I'm actually quite 果断 and strong in making such decisions.

As I reflect on events that has happened to me over the years (ok, not that much lah), I don't know if it is a sign of resignation at matters/issues affecting me, but at the end, it seems that for some things, what's the point? Of course, I know there are also things that are not "healthy" which must be removed.

Let's take work for example. I can say I'm a little perfectionistic, so once I start on something, it's hard for me to let go of some of the work I do, especially if it's like my "baby". But at some point, I get really stressed up and then I find that why do I get so possessive over certain things? It's not good actually coz it sort of makes one micro-manage and alone, actually, I can't do everything. So yah, I learnt to let go a little. Not that I don't do my best anymore, but I learn to not get too bothered over matters not within my control. Of course, if there are some urgent deadlines, yes, sometimes getting a bit stressed is good, but as long as priorities are set right, then things would be fine. And of course, there are issues about people at work which I think is not convenient to elaborate.

Hmm...in terms of relationships, well this requires a lot of help from God really. Especially in terms of disputes, where letting go means forgiveness. There was 1 time when I even went to "谈判" with a close friend coz I felt betrayed by her. Well, if some things needs to be done to resolve issues or help you let go, then it needs to be done. Of course it has to be done in a sensible manner after much thought (which I did...I prayed about it and prepared a script leh). Of course, there are other matters, and really I find that once I really pray and accept that I must let go of things that are bad for me (emotionally & of course spiritually), no matter how heartbreaking/painful, you can really feel a burden lifted. And sometimes, literally, it feels like that "feeling" (not sure what word to use), like a "tumour", gets cut off. Of course, one would need to pray the right (and sometimes difficult) prayer to really make oneself let go. You know, in cases when you say you want to let go, but am afraid/don't really want to let go, but must steel yourself to do it.

And fortunately, when it happens, I realise that hey! I can withstand it and be resolute about it. Of course, there is a healing process, but we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love him (Romans 8:28), so things will always work out eventually.