Analysing (my) restlessness

I took some time to reflect & analyse the reason for my restlessness at work. Besides the frustration as mentioned earlier, it dawned on me that maybe it's that I'm feeling "stuck" in my current position.

I don't seem to be developing professionally as a librarian and I don't see that happening much soon. Basically, what I'm doing mainly is admin, and systems-related stuff like creating user requirements to facilitate our operations and also provide our services. There's really no actual librarian work being done for me. Maybe the projects to a certain extent, but as a lot of things are outsourced and I'm bogged down by my systems stuff (I'm like the main rep for anything techy for my dept relating to our functions), I can't really focus on them. Also, some "professional development" work like gaining subject knowledge for my chosen focus is not taking off.

What I want to do is to really build on my collection development skill. It's about being able to intellectually select titles for the libraries based on policies, within resources and really getting to know the collection/subject area and what are the books available on the market, making comparisons on why we select this and not that, etc.
My dept basically has to collect certain titles and the bulk of the work is not about selecting titles (we can't really choose) but chasing people for the titles. The only thing we can term collection development would be deciding where the books would go.

I don't mind picking up cataloguing too. However, there is basically little time for me to work on that. Also, as daunting as it is as I'm not a sociable person, I would want to learn to answer reference enquiries. This knowledge sharing part is where you apply your knowledge of the collection and content to help others.

Not that I'm not good at the systems stuff (in fact, I think I'm "too good"...haha...ok, in comparison to others in my dept), but it's not really helping with the professional aspect of my librarianship career.

So yes, I'm stuck here, restricted and trapped, like a bird with clipped wings. You might say I can ask for a transfer, but the problem is that I'm currently bonded to stay on in my current dept/division for another 2 years due to the professional development programme that I naively signed up for. Can't wait for this bond to end so that I can move on to new things. Hey, it's almost 5 years for me in the same department. Isn't it time for me to explore out of it. After all, why waste youth?

On another note, maybe there is really a direction for me from God. Maybe this upcoming music project by a different division would more or less be up & running already by the time my bond ends. And I can help in that.